Sunday, October 18, 2015

10.11.2015 - Dang The Facebook Memories.

 hold my breath every time Facebook says I have a memory with Clint to look back on....
The memories are so sweet yet so sad to revisit....
Why did he have to be so amazing and gorgeous?! He seriously got cuter everyday! 
I'd ask "Are you taking cute pills?!"
I kept joking with him the last couple years -
"You should start being mean, or even less amazing and try looking ugly it would make it a LOT easier for me to lose you."
Then we just laughed as he would make a crazy ugly face
I miss my best friend - the one who knew all my jokes, the one who made me feel safe, the one who played 'guess which movie' with our favorite lines, the one who looked at me like I was the best thing ever created, the one who brightened all my dark clouds - the one who always made me smile - my person my spirits magnet.....
I feel like salt that has lost is savor, a song that forgot the melody, a compass that doesn't know a direction, a flower without the sunshine, a heart that is sick and drowning in grief.
I KNOW there's help for my broken heart! I KNOW that because of the atonement I can get strength that's not my own to get me through. I KNOW that because I've felt God's strength when I knew I didn't have any of my own left.
“I testify that the Savior’s Atonement lifts from us not only the burden of our sins but also the burden of our disappointments and sorrows, our heartaches and our despair. . . . There can and will be plenty of difficulties in life.
Nevertheless, the soul that comes unto Christ, who knows His voice and strives to do as He did, finds a strength, as the hymn says, ‘beyond [his] own.’ The Savior reminds us that He has ‘graven [us] upon the palms of [His] hands.’
Considering the incomprehensible cost of the Crucifixion and Atonement, I promise you He is not going to turn His back on us now. When He says to the poor in spirit, ‘Come unto me,’ He means He knows the way out and He knows the way up. He knows it because He has walked it. He knows the way because He IS the way."
- President Jeffrey R Holland 
(Clint's favorite apostle)
I KNOW we are literally children of a loving Heavenly Father who loves us individually and knows our sadness, frustrations, and problems!!
He is there to lift our burdens IF we ask for his help. I KNOW it because he's lifted mine. I will forever tell the world of his goodness and unconditional love that he has shown endlessly to my family - and each one of his children who come unto him.
Our fairy tale didn't go as planned - my Dream Man died in the second act but I KNOW through choosing the right and following Gods commandments we WILL live happily ever after in the end!!!
- Love you to the moon and back baby! With Gods help and your help I can do it and I WILL❤❤❤