Well it would be an understatement to say it's been a hard last couple of weeks.
Clint does not feel good at all. He hasn't been able to keep Any food down since Thursday of last week.
We had more CT scans today
Today at the doctors they said the tumors in his right lung have gotten progressively worse and have started to spread to his left lung.
Lung tumors: The only way to get "rid" of them would be to completely remove the right lung severely inhibiting his mobility and quality of life (Which we definitely won't do) so what do we do?! Nothing but pray they don't keep growing.
Other tumors in his flute and abdomen
this large tumor they aren't operating on... It's in a very difficult location and it's fused to his bowels.
Over the weekend his nerve pain started to come back as well so with the doctors we decided to do surgery (again) this Wednesday to remove the tumor in the right front of his leg and the tumor in the back of his glute that is around his nerves. (The one we operated on in November has regenerated) hoping that the surgery will help with the nerve pain and enrich his quality of life.
The doctor hit the nail on the head today when he said all we need to do after surgery is freeze time. Time is SO precious. We can live with terminal cancer I just can't live with it terminating my best friend.
Why is this happening? Why do the best people have to go through the worst of things? I don't know. But I DO know that no matter what situations and problems we are dealt we can choose how we handle them.
We can choose to look at the battle we have as a curse or look at the time we have been given as a gift. Life is supposed to be treasured and enjoyed and that's what us Bauer's try and do.
Leaving the hospital it was a pretty solemn car ride. Clint talked to his dad (Clint's dad is his soft place to fall) just hearing his voice Clint started to break down and cry.
We drove in silence for another 10 minutes and cried until I turned the radio on and much to my needed relief Sir Mix a Lot was singing about his baby's back. So I turned it up and shook what my mamma gave me.
Making Clint laugh (which makes it all worth it)