Well Clint's appointment was disappointing.( we should get use to that by now-right?)
the tumors in his lungs are growing. There's two in his right lung and five in his left lung. They can operate and remove them, but with tumors growing in other places in his body they are concerned it would keep coming back and they would have to keep taking more and more of his lungs out. To remove them from his lungs they can only do one side per surgery because in the surgery they have to collapse the lung they are operating on and the other lung has to do the breathing. The big concern is once you remove parts of your lung you can't do anything to get it back and it results in the loss of oxygen capacity- hence more and more surgeries leads to less and less oxygen your lungs can get.
We then met the Chemo Dr and learned about his options there. Monday all of the doctors will be meeting to discuss Clint and then Monday afternoon we meet with Clint's Dr and find out what our next step is.
I am pretty much emotionally numb today. I'm glad my father in law was there to crack his usual jokes and provide some comic relief. I also stuffed my face after with nachos, a hamburger and fries, and then for dinner pizza and my moms chocolate chip cookies.(obviously the temporary gratification left me not feeling so good )
Life's just not fair. I know it is a miracle that we have made it this far and we are so grateful for those like you that pray and think about us. I don't know what to do but move through and take it day by day.
And how can you be sad when this little person wants you to take him out for a walk and gives you a kiss?!
I'm so grateful for my kids and their sweet, energetic spirits! I will keep you posted after his appointment Monday. Maybe I will talk to you before then.
Signing off from my phone blogging
-Your Friend Kamille